Scars
Rachel C. Deal
May 25, 2007
I have never felt such pain
Sobs that go down so deep
I have no words
How much can I bear?
I know God has not forsaken me
That He is in control
I am not angry
But I think my heart might break
Jesus understands
His heart did break
When those He loved
Took His life
He conquered death
And dwells in heaven
But one thing remains
The scars on His hands
God has been with me
Through all my sorrows
Through the valley of the shadow
I am not afraid
After a while
I won’t remember the sting
I will heal
But the scars will remain
Cicatrices
Nunca he sentido tal dolor
Sollozos que bajan al profundo
No tengo palabras
¿Cuánto más puedo aguantar?
Sé que Dios no me ha abondano
Que El está en control
No estoy enojada
Pero siento que mi corazón se va a quebrar
Jesús entiende
Su corazón se rompió
Cuando los que El amó
Le quitaron la vida
Venció la muerte
Y vive en el cielo
Pero hay algo que permanece--
Las cicatrices en sus manos
Dios ha estado conmigo
A través de la tristeza
A través del valle de sombra
No tengo miedo
Después de un tiempo
No recordaré la punzada
Sanaré
Pero las cicatrices permanecerán
Updates, poems, and stories of Rachel's missionary journey.
Monday, May 28, 2007
God's Promise
Isaiah 43: 1-5
This is what the Lord says--He who created you, O Rachel, He who formed you: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...you are precious and honored in My sight and I love you...Do not be afraid.
Psalm 27: 1-6
The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? When evil advances against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident...For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock...at His tabernacle I will sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the Lord.
God does not promised that I will not pass through hard times, but He has promised to be with me through them and not let me be harmed. So in tough situations, I will praise the Lord.
Isaiah 43: 1-5
This is what the Lord says--He who created you, O Rachel, He who formed you: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...you are precious and honored in My sight and I love you...Do not be afraid.
Psalm 27: 1-6
The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? When evil advances against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident...For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock...at His tabernacle I will sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the Lord.
God does not promised that I will not pass through hard times, but He has promised to be with me through them and not let me be harmed. So in tough situations, I will praise the Lord.
Friday, May 25, 2007
My Daddy
My dad is in the hospital after an operation to remove his kidney and a cancerous mass. We were praying that the surgery had removed all infected cells, but yesterday's results show that the cancer is outside the kidney in the fatty tissue and a couple lymph nodes. My dad and stepmom, who is a faithful and positive support, consulted with an oncologist and he will begin treatment in the next week or two, after my dad recovers more from the surgery. He goes home soon. Although this is sad news, my dad seems to be at peace and hopeful; he told the oncologist that "we look forward to the journey." It is a great shock for me and I am taking it pretty hard, being far away (although I talk to them daily). However, I know God is with my dad. The other morning in my devotions with God, He told me that God will be glorified. Later that day, my dad said the same. He is in the hands of the best Doctor, and I must trust Him.
My dad is in the hospital after an operation to remove his kidney and a cancerous mass. We were praying that the surgery had removed all infected cells, but yesterday's results show that the cancer is outside the kidney in the fatty tissue and a couple lymph nodes. My dad and stepmom, who is a faithful and positive support, consulted with an oncologist and he will begin treatment in the next week or two, after my dad recovers more from the surgery. He goes home soon. Although this is sad news, my dad seems to be at peace and hopeful; he told the oncologist that "we look forward to the journey." It is a great shock for me and I am taking it pretty hard, being far away (although I talk to them daily). However, I know God is with my dad. The other morning in my devotions with God, He told me that God will be glorified. Later that day, my dad said the same. He is in the hands of the best Doctor, and I must trust Him.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Bogotá, Colombia
A Ministry Outreach
On Monday, my team helped out a church to go to an isolated community that needs Jesus. We had been praying for this event for several weeks and all of us chose different groups to support--activities with children, cooking, nursing/ dentistry, beauty care (manicures and hair cuts), and evangelism. I wanted to be part of the evangelism, but when I arrived, I felt that God wanted me to serve. He put it in my heart to give hand massages with the manicurists. Every person who sat in front of me was an opportunity from the Lord to share the love of Jesus. God gave me wisdom to share the gospel, using the gospel bracelet (with the wordless book colors), and He gave strength to my hands to give massages from 10 am to 2 pm. Then we had lunch for 1000 people, along with some choreographies. It rained off and on, but the people stayed around and many heard and saw and felt the unconditional love of Jesus Christ. It was a good tired at the end of the day!
A Ministry Outreach
On Monday, my team helped out a church to go to an isolated community that needs Jesus. We had been praying for this event for several weeks and all of us chose different groups to support--activities with children, cooking, nursing/ dentistry, beauty care (manicures and hair cuts), and evangelism. I wanted to be part of the evangelism, but when I arrived, I felt that God wanted me to serve. He put it in my heart to give hand massages with the manicurists. Every person who sat in front of me was an opportunity from the Lord to share the love of Jesus. God gave me wisdom to share the gospel, using the gospel bracelet (with the wordless book colors), and He gave strength to my hands to give massages from 10 am to 2 pm. Then we had lunch for 1000 people, along with some choreographies. It rained off and on, but the people stayed around and many heard and saw and felt the unconditional love of Jesus Christ. It was a good tired at the end of the day!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Bogota, Colombia
YWAM Base
Entering the last week of classes...
Thank God!
It has been one hard school--three months of stones and walls to climb over (if I don't want to fall down). (It has been an emotional NIKO, the survival camp.) I almost have fallen several times, but God has been faithful to help me through and provide an out to give me just the strength I need to make it through the dark night. And joy comes in the morning!
It has been a challenging school from the week leading up to the start to the end. I have made friends and am learning to love people that do not understand me or are able to at present. I have received many tools to guide me and help me form a ministry based on the needs of the children to give them the love of the Father, and have suffered through some classes (because I either didn't understand, agree, or was just dealing with other problems and struggling to participate). I have reconciled with my friend Josué and encountered a difficulty with my friend Cecy. In every decision, every day, the Lord has shown Himself real to me.
I have had oportunities to minister and be ministered to. I have cried over sin, over past hurts, over my dad's sickness. I have worked through some wounds and found healing in Christ. I have read 10 books that have taught me more about leadership, children, ministry, and the Father-heart of God. I am creating a project that the Lord is developing in me to enable wounded children to express themselves through poetry to lead to inner healing and a closer knowledge of God.
The month of June I will be in a ministry to observe and apply what I have learned. Pray with me that the Lord leads me to the best location for me and what I want to do, in working locally with the community as well as in education.
It is very cold here as always, and I always appreciate the moments of sun. I struggle with the altitude, one reason that I have not felt well here. I long for Iquitos and its warmth--and my room and bathroom and bed! I know it was God's will that I complete this school, but living with 10 (very different) girls in one room, and being with them plus the one guy for 3 months straight has been difficult. Plus the director of the ministry hasn't been around much, and the director of the school has been another challenge--the way she has run the school, and there is no other staff (there's no team).
Thank you for your support, financially and prayerfully--for me as I finish this next month and make decisions afterward, and for my dad's health and all my family. These last two weeks have been really tough, but God has carried me in His peace and rest. I am grateful for His power and leading in my life.
YWAM Base
Entering the last week of classes...
Thank God!
It has been one hard school--three months of stones and walls to climb over (if I don't want to fall down). (It has been an emotional NIKO, the survival camp.) I almost have fallen several times, but God has been faithful to help me through and provide an out to give me just the strength I need to make it through the dark night. And joy comes in the morning!
It has been a challenging school from the week leading up to the start to the end. I have made friends and am learning to love people that do not understand me or are able to at present. I have received many tools to guide me and help me form a ministry based on the needs of the children to give them the love of the Father, and have suffered through some classes (because I either didn't understand, agree, or was just dealing with other problems and struggling to participate). I have reconciled with my friend Josué and encountered a difficulty with my friend Cecy. In every decision, every day, the Lord has shown Himself real to me.
I have had oportunities to minister and be ministered to. I have cried over sin, over past hurts, over my dad's sickness. I have worked through some wounds and found healing in Christ. I have read 10 books that have taught me more about leadership, children, ministry, and the Father-heart of God. I am creating a project that the Lord is developing in me to enable wounded children to express themselves through poetry to lead to inner healing and a closer knowledge of God.
The month of June I will be in a ministry to observe and apply what I have learned. Pray with me that the Lord leads me to the best location for me and what I want to do, in working locally with the community as well as in education.
It is very cold here as always, and I always appreciate the moments of sun. I struggle with the altitude, one reason that I have not felt well here. I long for Iquitos and its warmth--and my room and bathroom and bed! I know it was God's will that I complete this school, but living with 10 (very different) girls in one room, and being with them plus the one guy for 3 months straight has been difficult. Plus the director of the ministry hasn't been around much, and the director of the school has been another challenge--the way she has run the school, and there is no other staff (there's no team).
Thank you for your support, financially and prayerfully--for me as I finish this next month and make decisions afterward, and for my dad's health and all my family. These last two weeks have been really tough, but God has carried me in His peace and rest. I am grateful for His power and leading in my life.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Back to Bogota
The event Saturday morning at the Colombianita, a two-block shack town of 250 children plus the adults, was a success! (see photo)They are recyclers, going through trash to find cans, bottles, and plastics that can be recyled, so it is very dirty and ugly. But the children are beautiful. I was a clown and helped to draw a crowd, participated in the children's songs, one of the choreographies, and acted like a child during the Gospel presentation, asking questions and praying the salvation prayer with the children (and some adults)! The presence of God was present, especially during the prayer and I feel that God is there and has not forgotten "these untouchables."
Prayer Requests:
That the Lord will show us as a team how to deal with specific situation;
That I will be respectful, loving, and patient with my team;
That I will be given an outreach location for the month of June where I can observe Christian and family principles--working within the community and teaching and have a kind family with whom to stay;
and that I will rest better at night so as to not be tired during the day to learn everything I can in this last month of classes.
The event Saturday morning at the Colombianita, a two-block shack town of 250 children plus the adults, was a success! (see photo)They are recyclers, going through trash to find cans, bottles, and plastics that can be recyled, so it is very dirty and ugly. But the children are beautiful. I was a clown and helped to draw a crowd, participated in the children's songs, one of the choreographies, and acted like a child during the Gospel presentation, asking questions and praying the salvation prayer with the children (and some adults)! The presence of God was present, especially during the prayer and I feel that God is there and has not forgotten "these untouchables."
Prayer Requests:
That the Lord will show us as a team how to deal with specific situation;
That I will be respectful, loving, and patient with my team;
That I will be given an outreach location for the month of June where I can observe Christian and family principles--working within the community and teaching and have a kind family with whom to stay;
and that I will rest better at night so as to not be tired during the day to learn everything I can in this last month of classes.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
The Untouchable
By Rachel C. Deal
I came to Him, an untouchable
A lover of the world and its sin
I was dirty, ragged, snot-nosed
And still He let me in
Into His arms wide open I came
Broken and full of shame
But He never once turned down His nose
He didn’t shoo me away
The pain of my past had closed my heart
Yet I begged with open hands
I couldn’t look Him in the eyes
Who was this gentle man?
“Give! Give!” was all I knew to say
Take was all I did
But when I saw my ugliness
I ran from Him and hid
He searched for me and cleaned me up
With love unconditional
He showed me myself in the mirror of grace
His beauty is what I saw
He has made me a woman of value
A pearl of great price
And now He’s calling me to be
His arms open wide
La Intocable
Vine a El, una intocable
Amante del mundo y su pecado
Estaba sucia, mocosa, y con ropa rota
Y aun me dejo entrar
Adentro de sus brazos abiertos llegué
Quebrantada y llena de vergüenza
Pero ni una vez El agachó la mirada
Nunca me despreció
El dolor del pasado había cerrado mi corazón
Pero mendigué con manos abiertas
No pude mirarlo en sus ojos
¿Quién era este hombre?
“Dame! Dame!” fue todo lo que sabia decir
Tomar fue todo lo que hice
Pero yo cuando vi mi fealdad
Huí de El y me escondí
El me buscaba y me lavó
Con amor incondicional
Me mostró a mi misma en el espejo de la gracia
Su belleza fue lo que vi
El me hizo una mujer de valor
Una perla preciosa
Y ahora me está llamando a ser
Sus brazos abiertos
By Rachel C. Deal
I came to Him, an untouchable
A lover of the world and its sin
I was dirty, ragged, snot-nosed
And still He let me in
Into His arms wide open I came
Broken and full of shame
But He never once turned down His nose
He didn’t shoo me away
The pain of my past had closed my heart
Yet I begged with open hands
I couldn’t look Him in the eyes
Who was this gentle man?
“Give! Give!” was all I knew to say
Take was all I did
But when I saw my ugliness
I ran from Him and hid
He searched for me and cleaned me up
With love unconditional
He showed me myself in the mirror of grace
His beauty is what I saw
He has made me a woman of value
A pearl of great price
And now He’s calling me to be
His arms open wide
La Intocable
Vine a El, una intocable
Amante del mundo y su pecado
Estaba sucia, mocosa, y con ropa rota
Y aun me dejo entrar
Adentro de sus brazos abiertos llegué
Quebrantada y llena de vergüenza
Pero ni una vez El agachó la mirada
Nunca me despreció
El dolor del pasado había cerrado mi corazón
Pero mendigué con manos abiertas
No pude mirarlo en sus ojos
¿Quién era este hombre?
“Dame! Dame!” fue todo lo que sabia decir
Tomar fue todo lo que hice
Pero yo cuando vi mi fealdad
Huí de El y me escondí
El me buscaba y me lavó
Con amor incondicional
Me mostró a mi misma en el espejo de la gracia
Su belleza fue lo que vi
El me hizo una mujer de valor
Una perla preciosa
Y ahora me está llamando a ser
Sus brazos abiertos
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Bogota, Colombia
Lord, I have believed so many lies for so long. Today I declare the truth, your truth about me, a different story, where I am not afraid, where my life is for Your glory. I hear your voice calling to me and I will choose today to believe the truth, what you are singing over me, your love and goodness. I walk on water, on faith, fighting giants, knowing that You are with me, winning battles, doing well. I am surprised that you have brought me here and I am thankful for Your compassion and gentle, tender care over me. You are a good shepherd and I love You and trust You and give my life to You, whatever the cost, whatever the sacrifice, I will follow you, O Voice of Truth. Amen.
Lord, I have believed so many lies for so long. Today I declare the truth, your truth about me, a different story, where I am not afraid, where my life is for Your glory. I hear your voice calling to me and I will choose today to believe the truth, what you are singing over me, your love and goodness. I walk on water, on faith, fighting giants, knowing that You are with me, winning battles, doing well. I am surprised that you have brought me here and I am thankful for Your compassion and gentle, tender care over me. You are a good shepherd and I love You and trust You and give my life to You, whatever the cost, whatever the sacrifice, I will follow you, O Voice of Truth. Amen.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Bogota, Colombia
Week 7
Half way through the school. This week was the toughest as last weekend, I went to a ministry to help with drug addict or rebellious boys from ages 10-15. Then I returned to the base running, and we have not had a break--classes on fatherlessness and family violence, lots of homework, thinking, crying, a prophet who shared a word from God to us--just a heavy week.
Yesterday, I went to DAS to renew my visa (another worry although I felt in my heart that God would give me the days I needed to finish the school, which ends June 29). I was given until July 10, so that's a blessing!
Another blessing has been the folks who have been at my side though a process of healing, which is always hard but results in a more Christ-like character.
A recent word that God gave me is that He accepts me just as I am. And that I can rest in His acceptance even in the midst of busyness, chaos, and difficulties.
Today I cleaned house, helped with lunch (for 30 people), and am now going to read and rest and draw and write--things I like and need to do, and haven't had time for all week.
Thanks for prayers for strength, peace, patience, and love for others and myself. Thanks for your fiancial support and letters of encouragement, as well. I really appreciate hearing from you! May the God of peace dwell richly in your hearts!
Week 7
Half way through the school. This week was the toughest as last weekend, I went to a ministry to help with drug addict or rebellious boys from ages 10-15. Then I returned to the base running, and we have not had a break--classes on fatherlessness and family violence, lots of homework, thinking, crying, a prophet who shared a word from God to us--just a heavy week.
Yesterday, I went to DAS to renew my visa (another worry although I felt in my heart that God would give me the days I needed to finish the school, which ends June 29). I was given until July 10, so that's a blessing!
Another blessing has been the folks who have been at my side though a process of healing, which is always hard but results in a more Christ-like character.
A recent word that God gave me is that He accepts me just as I am. And that I can rest in His acceptance even in the midst of busyness, chaos, and difficulties.
Today I cleaned house, helped with lunch (for 30 people), and am now going to read and rest and draw and write--things I like and need to do, and haven't had time for all week.
Thanks for prayers for strength, peace, patience, and love for others and myself. Thanks for your fiancial support and letters of encouragement, as well. I really appreciate hearing from you! May the God of peace dwell richly in your hearts!
Sunday, April 08, 2007
NIKO Survival Camp
Bucaramanga, Colombia
George Matheson, the well-known blind preacher of Scotland, who has gone to be with the Lord, said: "My God, I have never thanked Thee for my thorn. I have thanked Thee a thousand times for my roses, but not once for my thorn. I have been looking forward to a world where I shall get compensation for my cross; but I have never thought of my cross as itself a present glory.”
Every week I must write a summary for the school of what I learned along with roses (pleasures) and thorns (challenges). I learn from both, but the thorns definitely prove and form my character.
Notes for Mercy School, April 1-5:
Roses:
I SURVIVED!!
Finding myself in better health than I had expected
Enjoying nature and singing praises as I hiked
When it was really hot, I prayed and it rained lightly
Working well with my team
Making friends with one of my Latina teammates
Learning that I need to respond better under stress or conflicts, taking special care when I’m tired or sick
Having my team support me when I was in pain
Being able to do more than I had thought
Thorns:
Getting really annoyed with some poor choices of other team members that affected me
Getting hurt
Knowing that my attitude at one time of frustration affected my team
Not being sufficiently prepared for NIKO
Personal Application:
Every decision made brings consequences—good decisions bring good consequences always, and bad decisions bring bad consequences always. In God’s world, I can’t make a bad decision and expect a good consequence. With God’s help, I will make good decisions that bless others, please God, and bring good consequences.
I want to improve in my responses in the midst of conflicts—when someone interrupts or questions me, I want to learn to explain calmly and listen, not get defensive, angry, or sullen (withdraw).
I want to continue to work out (stretch and walk) so that I can get into good shape.
I can go further than I think, so with God’s help and strength, I will stretch my limits.
Ministerial Application:
Team work is vital. I cannot survive real life with its stresses, pleasures, sadnesses, and needs independently. I must trust in God, leaders, and others to help me. I must ask when I need help to lighten my load, before it’s an emergency. I want to be aware of others’ needs and willing to help lighten their loads.
Helping others who need help, hard work, sacrifice is rewarding—I might not even receive thanks, but the satisfaction and joy that I feel is reward enough. I want to always be focused on loving and serving others.
Bucaramanga, Colombia
George Matheson, the well-known blind preacher of Scotland, who has gone to be with the Lord, said: "My God, I have never thanked Thee for my thorn. I have thanked Thee a thousand times for my roses, but not once for my thorn. I have been looking forward to a world where I shall get compensation for my cross; but I have never thought of my cross as itself a present glory.”
Every week I must write a summary for the school of what I learned along with roses (pleasures) and thorns (challenges). I learn from both, but the thorns definitely prove and form my character.
Notes for Mercy School, April 1-5:
Roses:
I SURVIVED!!
Finding myself in better health than I had expected
Enjoying nature and singing praises as I hiked
When it was really hot, I prayed and it rained lightly
Working well with my team
Making friends with one of my Latina teammates
Learning that I need to respond better under stress or conflicts, taking special care when I’m tired or sick
Having my team support me when I was in pain
Being able to do more than I had thought
Thorns:
Getting really annoyed with some poor choices of other team members that affected me
Getting hurt
Knowing that my attitude at one time of frustration affected my team
Not being sufficiently prepared for NIKO
Personal Application:
Every decision made brings consequences—good decisions bring good consequences always, and bad decisions bring bad consequences always. In God’s world, I can’t make a bad decision and expect a good consequence. With God’s help, I will make good decisions that bless others, please God, and bring good consequences.
I want to improve in my responses in the midst of conflicts—when someone interrupts or questions me, I want to learn to explain calmly and listen, not get defensive, angry, or sullen (withdraw).
I want to continue to work out (stretch and walk) so that I can get into good shape.
I can go further than I think, so with God’s help and strength, I will stretch my limits.
Ministerial Application:
Team work is vital. I cannot survive real life with its stresses, pleasures, sadnesses, and needs independently. I must trust in God, leaders, and others to help me. I must ask when I need help to lighten my load, before it’s an emergency. I want to be aware of others’ needs and willing to help lighten their loads.
Helping others who need help, hard work, sacrifice is rewarding—I might not even receive thanks, but the satisfaction and joy that I feel is reward enough. I want to always be focused on loving and serving others.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Bogota, Colombia
Week 2
Schedule:
6 am wake up
6:30 devotional
7:30 chores
8 am breakfast
8:30 group devotion (by a student)
9-1:15 lesson 1:30 lunch
2:30-4 pm lesson
4-7 time to walk, do homework, read, memorize Bible verse, prepare dinner (we take turns)
7 pm dinner
10 in rooms
Book reports--every 2 weeks, I´m on book 4 of required 8
Creative book--summary of week, what we learned
The lessons have been on the Bill Gothard Seminary character qualities, the psyche of the child from conception, and information on children´s needs and minstries. (I´ve been translating most of the teachings; another student takes notes for me.)
I have very little free time. Today we spent the day at a farm a couple hours from the base, a ministry with boys who have been rescued from heading to the streets, because of family problems. It´s an institution and I really see God putting it in my heart to encourage family not institution. It was a long day and I have the creative book to work on. I hope to visit Cecy and David on Sunday. There is a lot to talk about.
I am glad I am here, and my team of 10 is united. 9 girls sleep in one big room, and the boy shares a room with a staff. I am glad there are veggetables at some meals and I buy fruits. But there is still a lot of carbs (rice and potatoes) served. I am trying to exercise, to get back in shape from the surgery. In a couple weeks we are going to do a 5-day survival ropes course, and as much as I want to do it, and it´s required, I´m not in good shape right now.
So I ask for prayers for sleep, rest, strength, energy, motivation to work out and do my work, the ability to prioritize my time well, and the heart to hear God´s direction for my life. I will be faced with some decisions soon and really need prayers. Thanks. Many blessings on you all.
Week 2
Schedule:
6 am wake up
6:30 devotional
7:30 chores
8 am breakfast
8:30 group devotion (by a student)
9-1:15 lesson 1:30 lunch
2:30-4 pm lesson
4-7 time to walk, do homework, read, memorize Bible verse, prepare dinner (we take turns)
7 pm dinner
10 in rooms
Book reports--every 2 weeks, I´m on book 4 of required 8
Creative book--summary of week, what we learned
The lessons have been on the Bill Gothard Seminary character qualities, the psyche of the child from conception, and information on children´s needs and minstries. (I´ve been translating most of the teachings; another student takes notes for me.)
I have very little free time. Today we spent the day at a farm a couple hours from the base, a ministry with boys who have been rescued from heading to the streets, because of family problems. It´s an institution and I really see God putting it in my heart to encourage family not institution. It was a long day and I have the creative book to work on. I hope to visit Cecy and David on Sunday. There is a lot to talk about.
I am glad I am here, and my team of 10 is united. 9 girls sleep in one big room, and the boy shares a room with a staff. I am glad there are veggetables at some meals and I buy fruits. But there is still a lot of carbs (rice and potatoes) served. I am trying to exercise, to get back in shape from the surgery. In a couple weeks we are going to do a 5-day survival ropes course, and as much as I want to do it, and it´s required, I´m not in good shape right now.
So I ask for prayers for sleep, rest, strength, energy, motivation to work out and do my work, the ability to prioritize my time well, and the heart to hear God´s direction for my life. I will be faced with some decisions soon and really need prayers. Thanks. Many blessings on you all.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
I encourage you to read more about the ministry where I am presently going to be studying for the next four months: www.colombiastreetkids.org/
It's an amazing ministry and I pray the Lord leads me into ministering to children in a way that 1) brings Him glory, 2) reaches many needy children, and 3) uses my strengthes and perhaps even more my weaknesses.
It's an amazing ministry and I pray the Lord leads me into ministering to children in a way that 1) brings Him glory, 2) reaches many needy children, and 3) uses my strengthes and perhaps even more my weaknesses.
Friday, February 23, 2007
Nightmare
I wake up drenched in sweat
In the middle of the night
I can hardly breathe
And long to see the light
Why am I so sad?
How long will the darkness last?
I can’t endure the pain
From a haunted past
Paralyzed on my bed
I wallow in hot tears
Oh God rescue me
Save me from my fears
Ah, I see the Light
Come to bring the day
I choose to rejoice in the One
Who takes the night away
Morning has arrived
Making me rise up and sing
In the sunshine I know
The joy of the Lord is my strength
Pesadilla
Me despierto sudando
En la medianoche
No puedo respirar
Anhelo ver la luz
¿Porque estoy tan triste?
¿Cuanto durará la oscuridad?
No aguanto el dolor
De un pasado angustiado
Paralizada en la cama
Me ahogo en mis lágrimas
Dios mió, rescátame
Sálvame de mis temores
Ah, veo la Luz
Trayéndome el día
Elijo regocijarme en El
Que quitó la noche
La mañana ha llegado
Haciendo levantarme y cantar
En el sol, yo sé
Que el gozo del Señor es mi fortaleza
By Rachel C. Deal
I wake up drenched in sweat
In the middle of the night
I can hardly breathe
And long to see the light
Why am I so sad?
How long will the darkness last?
I can’t endure the pain
From a haunted past
Paralyzed on my bed
I wallow in hot tears
Oh God rescue me
Save me from my fears
Ah, I see the Light
Come to bring the day
I choose to rejoice in the One
Who takes the night away
Morning has arrived
Making me rise up and sing
In the sunshine I know
The joy of the Lord is my strength
Pesadilla
Me despierto sudando
En la medianoche
No puedo respirar
Anhelo ver la luz
¿Porque estoy tan triste?
¿Cuanto durará la oscuridad?
No aguanto el dolor
De un pasado angustiado
Paralizada en la cama
Me ahogo en mis lágrimas
Dios mió, rescátame
Sálvame de mis temores
Ah, veo la Luz
Trayéndome el día
Elijo regocijarme en El
Que quitó la noche
La mañana ha llegado
Haciendo levantarme y cantar
En el sol, yo sé
Que el gozo del Señor es mi fortaleza
By Rachel C. Deal
Bogota, Colombia
It has been three weeks since I left the States. Upon arriving in Iquitos, I was very occupied with the preparations of the wedding as well as buying materials for the fence we have now put around the property in Iquitos. The cost to fence the 5 acres and hire workers (at $5 a day) was $650. This will keep people out and help people know that we will be building on the property soon. It is a big job to clean the brush and trees and maintain the property, as everything grows fast in the jungle. We want to build a large hut (“maloca”) of about 20 meters square. This will probably cost $2000 if we hire local workers. If we brought in a volunteer construction team, we would only need to hire a master who could teach the workers how to build the maloca and buy the materials. Please pray with me that God’s will be done. We want to build things that last and not cut corners, but at the same time get the best deal so as to not waste money.
The wedding was beautiful and sweet. David and Cecy are here in Bogotá, and will be settling down for a few months here, before returning to live in Iquitos. There are some big prayer requests concerning our beginning the ministry—a lot of questions and details to work out. God is in control and completely trustworthy. We just need to pray that we make the right decisions and make them as a team. There have been a lot of changes in my life in the last year, and I hope that these 4 months in Bogota help me clarify things in my heart. I want to be in Iquitos—I am excited and happy about the work to be done there. But right now, I need to focus on learning how to work with street kids and being open to what God has for me. This will be a great school for me.
I came a week early to Bogota with David, Cecy, and Cecy’s sister, Juliana, for a second “wedding” with David’s family; and I am staying at the YWAM base where I will be attending the school that starts March 4. I am living in the middle of the office space temporarily while the dorms are being constructed, However, I trust God and His plan for me. I want to use this extra time to rest, pray, write, read, and get to know the people at the base.
I am a little tired today because of the busyness before the wedding, being in the wedding, packing for Bogota, the 2 day boat ride to Leticia, conversations about future plans, a meeting with Pastor Jaime Useche to agree that I will be working in Iquitos not Leticia, but it is all working out fine. I am safe in the YWAM base. Change is always in front of me and I am content that I am in a good place spiritually and physically. Phil. 4:11
Prayer Requests:
Concentration, clarity, and organization
Confidence in what God is doing in and through me
During my time in Bogotá these next four months: safety, health, wisdom, rest, friendships, an open mind to God’s voice, and submission to authority
The team God is preparing for the street children ministry in Iquitos, Perú
Funds and wisdom in continued building plans
Praises:
The fence has been completed around our property in Iquitos
I am healing well from the operation and seem to have better health J
A good time in the 2 weeks I was in Iquitos—the wedding was beautiful, I hung out with my friends, and all my things I’d stored in my rented room are fine
An opportunity on the ship (“lancha”) to witness to a young Peruvian who accepted the Lord as Savior and Father!
A warm welcome here at the YWAM Bogotá base
Love in Christ, Rachel
February 23, 2007
I wrote the Nightmare today, not because I had a nightmare, but because I realized that living in the joy of the morning or the sorrow of night is my choice. I actually slept well, and have felt very welcomed here, the director talked to me for a long time about his vision of making the children part of the family not an institution. I am very happy that I will be here to learn more about how to work well with needy kids. Thanks for continued prayers and support.
It has been three weeks since I left the States. Upon arriving in Iquitos, I was very occupied with the preparations of the wedding as well as buying materials for the fence we have now put around the property in Iquitos. The cost to fence the 5 acres and hire workers (at $5 a day) was $650. This will keep people out and help people know that we will be building on the property soon. It is a big job to clean the brush and trees and maintain the property, as everything grows fast in the jungle. We want to build a large hut (“maloca”) of about 20 meters square. This will probably cost $2000 if we hire local workers. If we brought in a volunteer construction team, we would only need to hire a master who could teach the workers how to build the maloca and buy the materials. Please pray with me that God’s will be done. We want to build things that last and not cut corners, but at the same time get the best deal so as to not waste money.
The wedding was beautiful and sweet. David and Cecy are here in Bogotá, and will be settling down for a few months here, before returning to live in Iquitos. There are some big prayer requests concerning our beginning the ministry—a lot of questions and details to work out. God is in control and completely trustworthy. We just need to pray that we make the right decisions and make them as a team. There have been a lot of changes in my life in the last year, and I hope that these 4 months in Bogota help me clarify things in my heart. I want to be in Iquitos—I am excited and happy about the work to be done there. But right now, I need to focus on learning how to work with street kids and being open to what God has for me. This will be a great school for me.
I came a week early to Bogota with David, Cecy, and Cecy’s sister, Juliana, for a second “wedding” with David’s family; and I am staying at the YWAM base where I will be attending the school that starts March 4. I am living in the middle of the office space temporarily while the dorms are being constructed, However, I trust God and His plan for me. I want to use this extra time to rest, pray, write, read, and get to know the people at the base.
I am a little tired today because of the busyness before the wedding, being in the wedding, packing for Bogota, the 2 day boat ride to Leticia, conversations about future plans, a meeting with Pastor Jaime Useche to agree that I will be working in Iquitos not Leticia, but it is all working out fine. I am safe in the YWAM base. Change is always in front of me and I am content that I am in a good place spiritually and physically. Phil. 4:11
Prayer Requests:
Concentration, clarity, and organization
Confidence in what God is doing in and through me
During my time in Bogotá these next four months: safety, health, wisdom, rest, friendships, an open mind to God’s voice, and submission to authority
The team God is preparing for the street children ministry in Iquitos, Perú
Funds and wisdom in continued building plans
Praises:
The fence has been completed around our property in Iquitos
I am healing well from the operation and seem to have better health J
A good time in the 2 weeks I was in Iquitos—the wedding was beautiful, I hung out with my friends, and all my things I’d stored in my rented room are fine
An opportunity on the ship (“lancha”) to witness to a young Peruvian who accepted the Lord as Savior and Father!
A warm welcome here at the YWAM Bogotá base
Love in Christ, Rachel
February 23, 2007
I wrote the Nightmare today, not because I had a nightmare, but because I realized that living in the joy of the morning or the sorrow of night is my choice. I actually slept well, and have felt very welcomed here, the director talked to me for a long time about his vision of making the children part of the family not an institution. I am very happy that I will be here to learn more about how to work well with needy kids. Thanks for continued prayers and support.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Peru
It was a busy last week, but I am packed and ready to go to the airport. I'll be in Lima early tomorrow morning and will write soon to let you know of my arrival. I am excited and blessed to be sent to work in the Amazon. I ask for prayers for protection, wisdom, and peace--that I will rest in the plans God has for me, "plans to give me a future and a hope." Thanks for supporting me during this "emergency" trip home. It's been great to see everyone and receive a clearer vision of God's heart for the street kids of Iquitos.
It was a busy last week, but I am packed and ready to go to the airport. I'll be in Lima early tomorrow morning and will write soon to let you know of my arrival. I am excited and blessed to be sent to work in the Amazon. I ask for prayers for protection, wisdom, and peace--that I will rest in the plans God has for me, "plans to give me a future and a hope." Thanks for supporting me during this "emergency" trip home. It's been great to see everyone and receive a clearer vision of God's heart for the street kids of Iquitos.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
A Gift from God: Being a Street Child
By Webster Nhlanhla Nxele
Johannesburg, South Africa
What is this gift doing on the street?
Where does this gift sleep?
He sleeps on the street or on the bed like you?
What does this child eat?
This child has a dream but because he is on the street,
He cannot make his dream come true.
He is now using drugs to forget who he is.
What is he doing with his life?
What future does his life on the street have for him?
When the nights come,
He has to see where he is going to sleep.
He must drug himself so that he can pretend
He is inside the house like you,
Going to sleep on his bed with his warm blankets.
That’s only imagination
In truth he is going to sleep on the street
And all that strong wind and rain will end up on him.
When he suffers from all these pains,
Who is looking after him?
Who is taking care of him or to the doctor?
He has to wait until he gets better on his own.
These children are people like us.
Let us help them.
They are a gift from God.
Put them first.
~from No Turning Back: a novel of South Africa by Beverly Naidoo
By Webster Nhlanhla Nxele
Johannesburg, South Africa
What is this gift doing on the street?
Where does this gift sleep?
He sleeps on the street or on the bed like you?
What does this child eat?
This child has a dream but because he is on the street,
He cannot make his dream come true.
He is now using drugs to forget who he is.
What is he doing with his life?
What future does his life on the street have for him?
When the nights come,
He has to see where he is going to sleep.
He must drug himself so that he can pretend
He is inside the house like you,
Going to sleep on his bed with his warm blankets.
That’s only imagination
In truth he is going to sleep on the street
And all that strong wind and rain will end up on him.
When he suffers from all these pains,
Who is looking after him?
Who is taking care of him or to the doctor?
He has to wait until he gets better on his own.
These children are people like us.
Let us help them.
They are a gift from God.
Put them first.
~from No Turning Back: a novel of South Africa by Beverly Naidoo
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Dear Iquitos, Hidden Jewel
Dear Iquitos, beautiful city
You have welcomed me with open arms
Never have I known such intensity
You, who lie alongside the world’s longest river, have shown me true love and great need
A maze of streets, with fruit-sellers and sleeping children
You, with your glorious sunsets, hospitality, and sloths and snakes, captivate my heart
You, with your abandoned children, begging for food, searching through the dump, walking barefooted, make my heart cry
Dear Iquitos, hidden jewel
I will search for and find the precious children if it takes a life-time
Together we can give them a better future, free from the need of begging, working for nothing, prostitution, abuse, drugs, and fighting
Dear Iquitos, who has given me a place to call home
Take care of my babies, those who are old too soon, even those not yet born
Let’s give them a chance at life, hope, peace, and joy
Let’s give them a chance of safety, education, and self-worth
Let’s give them a chance to know Jesus’ love
According to the UN, children are supposed to be: “innocent, vulnerable and dependent, curious, active and full of hope, lives of joy, peace, playing, learning, and growing, with a future of harmony and cooperation, maturing as they broaden their perspectives and gain new experiences.”
Dear children of Iquitos
You who are made in God’s image and tenderly loved by Him
That is what I desire for you
Dear Iquitos, beautiful city
You have welcomed me with open arms
Never have I known such intensity
You, who lie alongside the world’s longest river, have shown me true love and great need
A maze of streets, with fruit-sellers and sleeping children
You, with your glorious sunsets, hospitality, and sloths and snakes, captivate my heart
You, with your abandoned children, begging for food, searching through the dump, walking barefooted, make my heart cry
Dear Iquitos, hidden jewel
I will search for and find the precious children if it takes a life-time
Together we can give them a better future, free from the need of begging, working for nothing, prostitution, abuse, drugs, and fighting
Dear Iquitos, who has given me a place to call home
Take care of my babies, those who are old too soon, even those not yet born
Let’s give them a chance at life, hope, peace, and joy
Let’s give them a chance of safety, education, and self-worth
Let’s give them a chance to know Jesus’ love
According to the UN, children are supposed to be: “innocent, vulnerable and dependent, curious, active and full of hope, lives of joy, peace, playing, learning, and growing, with a future of harmony and cooperation, maturing as they broaden their perspectives and gain new experiences.”
Dear children of Iquitos
You who are made in God’s image and tenderly loved by Him
That is what I desire for you
Prayers for Children
By Amy Carmichael
Father, hear us, we are praying
Hear the words of our hearts saying
We are praying for our children
Keep them from the powers of evil
From the secret, hidden peril
Father, hear us for our children
From the whirlpool that would suck them
From the treacherous quicksand pluck them
Father, hear us for our children
From the worldling’s hollow gladness
From the sting of faithless sadness
Father, Father, keep our children
Through life’s troubled waters steer them
Through life’s’ bitter battles cheer them
Father, Father, be Thou near them
Read the language of our longing
Read the wordless pleadings thronging
Holy Father, for our children
And wherever they may bide
Lead them home at eventide.
By Amy Carmichael
Father, hear us, we are praying
Hear the words of our hearts saying
We are praying for our children
Keep them from the powers of evil
From the secret, hidden peril
Father, hear us for our children
From the whirlpool that would suck them
From the treacherous quicksand pluck them
Father, hear us for our children
From the worldling’s hollow gladness
From the sting of faithless sadness
Father, Father, keep our children
Through life’s troubled waters steer them
Through life’s’ bitter battles cheer them
Father, Father, be Thou near them
Read the language of our longing
Read the wordless pleadings thronging
Holy Father, for our children
And wherever they may bide
Lead them home at eventide.
I am endangered
I am voiceless
I am invisible
I am of low esteem
I am a waste of time
I am hidden under poverty
I am hungry
I am alone
I am a silent emergency
My name does not matter
I am every child
Did you know?? *
•there are 2.2. billion children in the world, one billion of whom live in poverty?
•more than 11 million of us children die each year before reaching the age of five—that’s 210,000 every week?
•8 million of us die yearly from one or more of five diseases that move in on our bodies that have been weakened by hunger: pneumonia, diarrhea, measles, malaria, and malnutrition, most of which are preventable or treatable?
•we kids lose 443 million school days each year from water-related illness, a lack of water or a lack of sanitation and 1.8 million of our deaths result from diarrhea—that’s 3 children per minute?
•3000 of us die every day—that’s one kid every 30 seconds—from malaria in Africa alone due to a lack of programs to prevent and antimalarial to treat malaria?
•30,000 of us children die each day due to poverty? According to UNICEF, we “die quietly in some of the poorest villages on earth, far removed from the scrutiny and the conscience of the world. Being weak in life makes these dying multitudes even more invisible in death.”
•16,000 of us die from hunger-related causes every day—that’s one kid every five seconds?
•15 million of us were orphaned this year due to our parents’ dying from AIDS?
•200 of us are dying every day in Iraq, a number that has been increasing since the war started in 2003, from malnutrition, a lack of clean water, and a lack of medical equipment and drugs to cure easily treatable diseases?
•most of us are illiterate because we are fighting to survive (mostly working for a pittance in deplorable situations)—121 million of us have never been to school?
•more money is spent on ice cream every year than education and water sanitation together?
•in Brasil, killing children is a pastime for police: 4 to 5 adolescents are murdered daily, a child is beaten every 12 minutes, 4.5 million children under 12 are working, and 500,000 children are engaged in domestic labor?
•there are 150 million street kids, most of whom do not have a home to go to at night?
•in the United States, a million of us are abused yearly and four die daily?
•we are often sold into slavery or prostitution to pay off a family debt or because our family can’t afford to feed us?
•we are often forced to beg on the streets to buy drugs for our parents?
•most of us have never heard about Jesus’ love?
*Due to a lack of available information, not all stats are up-to-date.
I am voiceless
I am invisible
I am of low esteem
I am a waste of time
I am hidden under poverty
I am hungry
I am alone
I am a silent emergency
My name does not matter
I am every child
Did you know?? *
•there are 2.2. billion children in the world, one billion of whom live in poverty?
•more than 11 million of us children die each year before reaching the age of five—that’s 210,000 every week?
•8 million of us die yearly from one or more of five diseases that move in on our bodies that have been weakened by hunger: pneumonia, diarrhea, measles, malaria, and malnutrition, most of which are preventable or treatable?
•we kids lose 443 million school days each year from water-related illness, a lack of water or a lack of sanitation and 1.8 million of our deaths result from diarrhea—that’s 3 children per minute?
•3000 of us die every day—that’s one kid every 30 seconds—from malaria in Africa alone due to a lack of programs to prevent and antimalarial to treat malaria?
•30,000 of us children die each day due to poverty? According to UNICEF, we “die quietly in some of the poorest villages on earth, far removed from the scrutiny and the conscience of the world. Being weak in life makes these dying multitudes even more invisible in death.”
•16,000 of us die from hunger-related causes every day—that’s one kid every five seconds?
•15 million of us were orphaned this year due to our parents’ dying from AIDS?
•200 of us are dying every day in Iraq, a number that has been increasing since the war started in 2003, from malnutrition, a lack of clean water, and a lack of medical equipment and drugs to cure easily treatable diseases?
•most of us are illiterate because we are fighting to survive (mostly working for a pittance in deplorable situations)—121 million of us have never been to school?
•more money is spent on ice cream every year than education and water sanitation together?
•in Brasil, killing children is a pastime for police: 4 to 5 adolescents are murdered daily, a child is beaten every 12 minutes, 4.5 million children under 12 are working, and 500,000 children are engaged in domestic labor?
•there are 150 million street kids, most of whom do not have a home to go to at night?
•in the United States, a million of us are abused yearly and four die daily?
•we are often sold into slavery or prostitution to pay off a family debt or because our family can’t afford to feed us?
•we are often forced to beg on the streets to buy drugs for our parents?
•most of us have never heard about Jesus’ love?
*Due to a lack of available information, not all stats are up-to-date.
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