Scars
Rachel C. Deal
May 25, 2007
I have never felt such pain
Sobs that go down so deep
I have no words
How much can I bear?
I know God has not forsaken me
That He is in control
I am not angry
But I think my heart might break
Jesus understands
His heart did break
When those He loved
Took His life
He conquered death
And dwells in heaven
But one thing remains
The scars on His hands
God has been with me
Through all my sorrows
Through the valley of the shadow
I am not afraid
After a while
I won’t remember the sting
I will heal
But the scars will remain
Cicatrices
Nunca he sentido tal dolor
Sollozos que bajan al profundo
No tengo palabras
¿Cuánto más puedo aguantar?
Sé que Dios no me ha abondano
Que El está en control
No estoy enojada
Pero siento que mi corazón se va a quebrar
Jesús entiende
Su corazón se rompió
Cuando los que El amó
Le quitaron la vida
Venció la muerte
Y vive en el cielo
Pero hay algo que permanece--
Las cicatrices en sus manos
Dios ha estado conmigo
A través de la tristeza
A través del valle de sombra
No tengo miedo
Después de un tiempo
No recordaré la punzada
Sanaré
Pero las cicatrices permanecerán
Updates, poems, and stories of Rachel's missionary journey.
Monday, May 28, 2007
God's Promise
Isaiah 43: 1-5
This is what the Lord says--He who created you, O Rachel, He who formed you: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...you are precious and honored in My sight and I love you...Do not be afraid.
Psalm 27: 1-6
The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? When evil advances against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident...For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock...at His tabernacle I will sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the Lord.
God does not promised that I will not pass through hard times, but He has promised to be with me through them and not let me be harmed. So in tough situations, I will praise the Lord.
Isaiah 43: 1-5
This is what the Lord says--He who created you, O Rachel, He who formed you: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...you are precious and honored in My sight and I love you...Do not be afraid.
Psalm 27: 1-6
The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? When evil advances against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident...For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock...at His tabernacle I will sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the Lord.
God does not promised that I will not pass through hard times, but He has promised to be with me through them and not let me be harmed. So in tough situations, I will praise the Lord.
Friday, May 25, 2007
My Daddy
My dad is in the hospital after an operation to remove his kidney and a cancerous mass. We were praying that the surgery had removed all infected cells, but yesterday's results show that the cancer is outside the kidney in the fatty tissue and a couple lymph nodes. My dad and stepmom, who is a faithful and positive support, consulted with an oncologist and he will begin treatment in the next week or two, after my dad recovers more from the surgery. He goes home soon. Although this is sad news, my dad seems to be at peace and hopeful; he told the oncologist that "we look forward to the journey." It is a great shock for me and I am taking it pretty hard, being far away (although I talk to them daily). However, I know God is with my dad. The other morning in my devotions with God, He told me that God will be glorified. Later that day, my dad said the same. He is in the hands of the best Doctor, and I must trust Him.
My dad is in the hospital after an operation to remove his kidney and a cancerous mass. We were praying that the surgery had removed all infected cells, but yesterday's results show that the cancer is outside the kidney in the fatty tissue and a couple lymph nodes. My dad and stepmom, who is a faithful and positive support, consulted with an oncologist and he will begin treatment in the next week or two, after my dad recovers more from the surgery. He goes home soon. Although this is sad news, my dad seems to be at peace and hopeful; he told the oncologist that "we look forward to the journey." It is a great shock for me and I am taking it pretty hard, being far away (although I talk to them daily). However, I know God is with my dad. The other morning in my devotions with God, He told me that God will be glorified. Later that day, my dad said the same. He is in the hands of the best Doctor, and I must trust Him.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Bogotá, Colombia
A Ministry Outreach
On Monday, my team helped out a church to go to an isolated community that needs Jesus. We had been praying for this event for several weeks and all of us chose different groups to support--activities with children, cooking, nursing/ dentistry, beauty care (manicures and hair cuts), and evangelism. I wanted to be part of the evangelism, but when I arrived, I felt that God wanted me to serve. He put it in my heart to give hand massages with the manicurists. Every person who sat in front of me was an opportunity from the Lord to share the love of Jesus. God gave me wisdom to share the gospel, using the gospel bracelet (with the wordless book colors), and He gave strength to my hands to give massages from 10 am to 2 pm. Then we had lunch for 1000 people, along with some choreographies. It rained off and on, but the people stayed around and many heard and saw and felt the unconditional love of Jesus Christ. It was a good tired at the end of the day!
A Ministry Outreach
On Monday, my team helped out a church to go to an isolated community that needs Jesus. We had been praying for this event for several weeks and all of us chose different groups to support--activities with children, cooking, nursing/ dentistry, beauty care (manicures and hair cuts), and evangelism. I wanted to be part of the evangelism, but when I arrived, I felt that God wanted me to serve. He put it in my heart to give hand massages with the manicurists. Every person who sat in front of me was an opportunity from the Lord to share the love of Jesus. God gave me wisdom to share the gospel, using the gospel bracelet (with the wordless book colors), and He gave strength to my hands to give massages from 10 am to 2 pm. Then we had lunch for 1000 people, along with some choreographies. It rained off and on, but the people stayed around and many heard and saw and felt the unconditional love of Jesus Christ. It was a good tired at the end of the day!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Bogota, Colombia
YWAM Base
Entering the last week of classes...
Thank God!
It has been one hard school--three months of stones and walls to climb over (if I don't want to fall down). (It has been an emotional NIKO, the survival camp.) I almost have fallen several times, but God has been faithful to help me through and provide an out to give me just the strength I need to make it through the dark night. And joy comes in the morning!
It has been a challenging school from the week leading up to the start to the end. I have made friends and am learning to love people that do not understand me or are able to at present. I have received many tools to guide me and help me form a ministry based on the needs of the children to give them the love of the Father, and have suffered through some classes (because I either didn't understand, agree, or was just dealing with other problems and struggling to participate). I have reconciled with my friend Josué and encountered a difficulty with my friend Cecy. In every decision, every day, the Lord has shown Himself real to me.
I have had oportunities to minister and be ministered to. I have cried over sin, over past hurts, over my dad's sickness. I have worked through some wounds and found healing in Christ. I have read 10 books that have taught me more about leadership, children, ministry, and the Father-heart of God. I am creating a project that the Lord is developing in me to enable wounded children to express themselves through poetry to lead to inner healing and a closer knowledge of God.
The month of June I will be in a ministry to observe and apply what I have learned. Pray with me that the Lord leads me to the best location for me and what I want to do, in working locally with the community as well as in education.
It is very cold here as always, and I always appreciate the moments of sun. I struggle with the altitude, one reason that I have not felt well here. I long for Iquitos and its warmth--and my room and bathroom and bed! I know it was God's will that I complete this school, but living with 10 (very different) girls in one room, and being with them plus the one guy for 3 months straight has been difficult. Plus the director of the ministry hasn't been around much, and the director of the school has been another challenge--the way she has run the school, and there is no other staff (there's no team).
Thank you for your support, financially and prayerfully--for me as I finish this next month and make decisions afterward, and for my dad's health and all my family. These last two weeks have been really tough, but God has carried me in His peace and rest. I am grateful for His power and leading in my life.
YWAM Base
Entering the last week of classes...
Thank God!
It has been one hard school--three months of stones and walls to climb over (if I don't want to fall down). (It has been an emotional NIKO, the survival camp.) I almost have fallen several times, but God has been faithful to help me through and provide an out to give me just the strength I need to make it through the dark night. And joy comes in the morning!
It has been a challenging school from the week leading up to the start to the end. I have made friends and am learning to love people that do not understand me or are able to at present. I have received many tools to guide me and help me form a ministry based on the needs of the children to give them the love of the Father, and have suffered through some classes (because I either didn't understand, agree, or was just dealing with other problems and struggling to participate). I have reconciled with my friend Josué and encountered a difficulty with my friend Cecy. In every decision, every day, the Lord has shown Himself real to me.
I have had oportunities to minister and be ministered to. I have cried over sin, over past hurts, over my dad's sickness. I have worked through some wounds and found healing in Christ. I have read 10 books that have taught me more about leadership, children, ministry, and the Father-heart of God. I am creating a project that the Lord is developing in me to enable wounded children to express themselves through poetry to lead to inner healing and a closer knowledge of God.
The month of June I will be in a ministry to observe and apply what I have learned. Pray with me that the Lord leads me to the best location for me and what I want to do, in working locally with the community as well as in education.
It is very cold here as always, and I always appreciate the moments of sun. I struggle with the altitude, one reason that I have not felt well here. I long for Iquitos and its warmth--and my room and bathroom and bed! I know it was God's will that I complete this school, but living with 10 (very different) girls in one room, and being with them plus the one guy for 3 months straight has been difficult. Plus the director of the ministry hasn't been around much, and the director of the school has been another challenge--the way she has run the school, and there is no other staff (there's no team).
Thank you for your support, financially and prayerfully--for me as I finish this next month and make decisions afterward, and for my dad's health and all my family. These last two weeks have been really tough, but God has carried me in His peace and rest. I am grateful for His power and leading in my life.
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